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My Story: Recurrent Loss of Pregnancy to Mama of Two

Lets start with the moral of the story. You want to get pregnant - and more importantly - you want to believe your body can actually do so.

But after months of following the advice of blogs, natural fertility experts, forums… you’re still not counting down the days to your due date. Why? Modern healthcare is focused on treating symptoms, not looking at the WHY. Being thrown into my own secondary infertility struggle I solidified the idea in my mind that true healing requires looking under the surface— like an iceberg - addressing the whole body to see what’s holding you back. You can take control of your fertility and have a healthy pregnancy but only with the RIGHT strategy.

My Recurrent Loss of Pregnancy Story

It was after my second miscarriage that I had the intuition that something deeper was wrong. I remember sitting in the OB office, super light periods, no sex drive, feeling completely at a loss. I was 31, “healthy”, but my body was failing me. I had uterine polyps, a thin endometrial lining, and low estrogen—but no one could explain why.

The only answer I got was a prescription for estrogen and a drug to force ovulation. No questions were asked. No one wondered why a woman my age had low estrogen.

There I was, a healthcare provider myself, half way through my integrative medicine fellowship, facing the reality that I might not be able to have more children. The guilt was overwhelming. I had a beautiful 3-year-old son, and I felt like I should just be grateful, but I couldn’t shake the desire to add another child to our family. I felt greedy, but more than that—I felt broken.

My intuition had been screaming at me that something was wrong, but when I spoke up, my concerns were belittled. I sat in exam rooms, vulnerable and desperate for answers, but instead of being heard, this is what I got:

  • “Make sure you're taking a prenatal. Are you taking a prenatal? That’s the best thing you can do.” This was insulting.

  • Sometimes these things just happen,” as though the miscarriages were simply bad luck.

  • I’ll never forget the moment when, after my second miscarriage, I heard, “Well, technically, three miscarriages is considered recurrent... We can probably start some testing now, but I can’t say it will be covered by insurance.”

The thought that I had to endure more loss before anyone would take action was infuriating. I felt like I was shouting into an empty room.

As a nurse practitioner, I knew there had to be more than just this band-aid approach. But at the time, despite my years of experience, I didn’t know what else to do. I was caught in a system that wasn’t designed to look for the root cause—just patch the problem and move on to the next patient.

How many late nights did I spend on Google searching for answers? Was I going into early menopause? Would my son be an only child? It was all I could think about. I felt isolated, jealous of friends who were growing their families no problem at all. And my husband—he didn’t understand why I couldn’t just accept our life as it was. We argued. Now, I realize he was grieving too, but at the time we couldn’t talk about it. I was stuck in a loop of frustration, desperation, and anger.

Halfway through my integrative medicine fellowship, spending my days learning about lifestyle medicine—nutrition, stress management, environmental toxins, and how everything is interconnected -

But I was so deep in my own fertility journey, that I couldn’t see the resources I had right in front of me.

I was learning EXACTLY the kind of things that could help me, but couldn’t see it. I was focused on treating my symptoms—low estrogen, thin lining, and total exhaustion—just like my conventional medicine training. One night, during yet another late-night Google search, I came across the website of a functional practitioner talking about the role of food and toxins in hormonal health. It felt familiar, like I’d been hearing it all along, but something clicked that night in a way it hadn’t before.

I remember walking into the bathroom, picking up the shampoo I’d been using, and turning the bottle around. There, right in front of me, ingredients I had NEVER questioned—chemicals known to lower estrogen and complete greenwashing on the label. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I had been putting this directly on my skin. I finally understood: nothing in the body works alone. My hormones, my burnout, the inflammation, the toxins—it was ALL connected. I’d been delivered this info on a silver platter in my fellowship, yet it took my own health crisis for me to truly open my eyes.

Finally in the driver’s seat…

From that moment, I completely changed how I looked at my body. Step 1 - give my stress response system a break. Give my cells the support they need to repair damage. Stop playing victim to the products and substances I put on my skin. I supported blood flow to my uterus and ovaries, improved cellular health, and gave my body the space and support it needed to heal.

It wasn’t easy. I had to deal with skepticism from colleagues, read dozenssss of research papers to figure out what was evidence-based and what wasn’t, and remind my family that I needed their support.

But you’d do anything for a healthy baby. I know you understand this statement.

I realized that the profession I had devoted my life to wasn’t enough. The healthcare system I worked within wasn’t designed to ask the deeper questions. I had to rebuild my own understanding of health and fertility from the ground up. And in doing so, I found a path to healing—not just for me, but for the many women like me who were suffering, dismissed by a system that didn’t see them.

Finding My Purpose

Now, my daughter just turned 2. I spend my days pouring over the details of other women’s fertility challenges, connecting the dots that others might overlook - between enjoying every little moment with my two babies. With 15+ years of healthcare experience and over 2,000 hours of integrative medicine training, I’ve turned my own pain into purpose.

I know now that the body is self-healing, capable of incredible things when given the right inputs.

Fertility is the first thing to go when the body is under attack—whether from stress, toxins, or other imbalances. But it can come back.

If you feel, deep in your heart, that motherhood is meant for you, then it is meant for you.

You Have the Power to Heal

What if there’s nothing wrong with your body?

What if the real issue is that the strategy you’ve been given—the one-size-fits-all approach—is flawed?

The truth is, conventional healthcare isn’t going to save us—we have to save ourselves. The modern world is full of things that threaten our health and fertility, but the tools to heal are out there. If you’re willing to look beyond the doctor’s office, you can find them and take back control of your health.

Here’s the thing: the solutions to improving fertility are already within your reach. You just have to ask the deeper questions. Watching my daughter grow reminds me every day that healing is possible—and that the life you’re praying for is worth fighting for.

But how?

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